The work 1/31/20

The work  

I'll drain the Dragon before I go

And leave a piss hole in the snow

I'll drive to work with joy and zest

I've come to realize that it's all a test

Of what I've learned and how to react

If I'll act with grace  or just get cracked

Time is short and the message is clear

Get tough and skilled or live in fear

Day 29,309 1/31/20

Old age 1/20/30

Old age 

I wake with joy and live with mirth

I'm really glad that I came to earth

Food in the fridge and firewood in the shed

Heating, lighting and a comfortable bed

TV, radio and my incredible cell phone

Hunger and thirst are totally unknown
Wife family and friends 
How great till it ends

The best part by far is what's in my head

Gratitude gratitude till the day that I am dead

    Day 29,308 1/30/20

Optimum 1/29/20

Don't over tighten

The water faucet

Balance

Knowing when to stop

Having the discipline to be able to stop

Two glasses of wine at sunset in

Mendocino

Can be a life enhancing experience

Six glasses of wine anywhere

Is distractive and unhealthy

Seek the optimum in all activities

Don't over tighten

The water faucet

1/29/20  day 29,307

Time 1/27/20

My grip 

Loosens as the

Clock

Quickens

When I was a kid on my

Grandfather's farm

The summers seem to last

Forever

Five minutes in a cold shower seems

Longer

Then a lengthy lunch with friends

And now time accelerates

I'm starting my ninth decade

And it seems like just a few years ago

I was discharged from the Navy

Hanging around barrooms 

Wondering what to do next

All my great plans and projects

"Someday"   "later"   "tomorrow's "

"When I have more time"

Are slipping away into the

Forever over

All is well

Day 29,304 1,27,2020

Finally

Sometimes right

Sometimes wrong

Always in doubt

Bill Bonner

How exciting I'll scream and shout

I finally figured what it's all about

So many years

And

So Many tears

It's so simple how could I have missed it

All it takes is to really commit

To study, meditation and developing my will

Practice, practice and building great skill

Dying is for later

(Maybe)

But

Now I'm a creator 

Of

Bullshit head stuff

Have a great day

Day 29,304  1/26/20

Death poem

Death poem

I came I saw I did a lot

But now I know it don't mean squat

The few things I found that have real meaning

Are gratitude,love  and friends convening

My wife my kids my friends my dog and cat

There ain't no difference if I die fat

The final message is short and sweet

My trip through time is been some great treat

Yesterday we went to a memorial service for 

Tim Johnson

The message came across loud and clear

Be kind and grateful before you disappear

We spent some time together the day before he died

We laughed and joked and question why

I said there's a chance that we'll meet again

He said if not so what stay well my friend

day 29,297

Common sense

There's nothing 

More uncommon

Then common sense

Frank Loyd Wright

Look at the kinds of things

Americans consume

Boxes -- Cans -- Bags

Of nonlethal injectables

20 ounces of soda pop per day

150 pounds of sugar

250 billion cigarettes 

And $330 billion worth of 

Prescription drugs per year

One ICBM traveling at 15,000 mph

Can render

A $30 billion aircraft carrier group

As effective as Columbus's fleet

US government has created

The largest debt in history 

Reflect on Venezuela and Zimbabwe

As you consider our future

Eat your Wheaties 

And send lots of Tweetys

day 29,295

Progress

Only the dead 

Will know

An end to war 

Seneca

What's wrong with us

Since the earliest

Tribal communities

Let's go raid the neighbors 

Kill the man

Rape the women

And eat the children

It's much more civilized

Today

Some dickhead in St. Louis

Can drink coffee

And rain down fire and brimstone

On some other dickhead

At the airport in Baghdad

Progress

day 29,294

Reaction

What

Am I doing

Why

Hopeless  -----  Helpless

Gratifying   ----  Fulfilling

My choice

Always

Refuckingaction

Sculpted by

My ancestors

Time and place of my birth

Parents   friends   teachers

I have been studying how to

Manage my reactions

For over 50 years 

And I'm still learning

I'll carry on till I'm carried out

day 29,293

Ministry

The situation 

Somehow

Critters with many choices

Became a dominant factor

In the environment

Most of the other critters 

Seem to be guided by two

Wired in imperatives

Survival and procreation

The choice ridden ones can do 

Anything fucking that comes into their head

They can act with compassion and kindness

Or sometimes greed and cruelty

Anyway today is Tuesday

And my situation still requires

Air with at least 20% oxygen and a specific

Range of temperature and pressure

32---150 degrees Fahrenheit and

4---100 pounds per square inch

Elimination of processed substances

Sleep

Ingesting liquids and solids

What's the point

Big question

I have come up with a few different

 Answers over the years 

None of which make any sense now

It is just some kind of

Incredible ministry

??

day 29,292

Listen

Listen 

80% of all sensory perception

Enters through our ears

Only 11% through our eyes

My mother said please listen to me

Mrs. Spitznagle( English teacher) said

You can't hear when your mouths moving

First class petty officer Little said

(Boot camp drill instructor)

Shut the fuck up and listen

My first wife said

You never listen to me

Maybe 25 years ago I realize that

I talk too much---and don't listen enough

Now my work is remembering

I can't learn anything when 

I'm running my mouth

Listen

day 29.290

Read

Compress

Decades into days

Learn with ease

What others have struggled

To understand

READ!!!!

Tony Robins

So much

Interesting useful information

Available

Podcasts--YouTube videos--Newsletters

Books

Books   Books  Books  Books

Other times

Different places

Re-incarnation     Meditation

Humor      Drama

Knowledge?

Wisdom???

I hope to die with a book in my hand

day 29,289

Opinion

After a lengthy lunchtime discussion of 

"World affairs"

And the latest political developments

I realize

That having a strong

Opinion

About anything

That I can't potentially control 

Is a stupid waste of time

And energy

I can listen and observe others

Not as some higher being

But as a curious loving observer

Remembering always

The feudal brevity of life

Everybody is headed in the 

Same direction

 I will gleefully play my role 

As mother time takes her toll

day 29,291

Reminders

Little flare ups

Impatience--disapproval--anger

Cats under foot dog is barking

These are the micro

Opportunities

Reminders

To joyfully

Turn on the gratitude

In my feeble quest

To always create a

Wholesome reaction

day 29.289

Suffering

We shirk from 

Suffering

But embrace it

Causes

The Buddha

There's almost nothing better than

Wolfing down a quart of

Chocolate hazelnut

Ice creme

Or how about that organic

Red Zinfandel

A small voice has just become

Loud enough

Body fat and morning headaches

Are under control 

For now 

What an incredible thing

Coming to

The planet Earth

day 29,286

Perspective

I will always create a 

Wholesome helpful 

Response

This is not terrible or unfair

Stupid or unnecessary

This is just the next thing

Here on the planet earth

In our local solar system

One amongst hundreds of thousands

In the O'Ryan arm of the Milky Way Galaxy

Amongst millions of galaxies

One instinct in the infinity of time

Perspective

There is only one sensible perspective

Gratitude

All is well

day 29 284

Finish line

I am over the finish line 

And still going

Full speed

All the some days

Are falling away

There is no later

When I will have more time

Someday soon no tomorrow

I am now only

What seed can I plant

What weed can I pull

All is well

 day 29,284

Reaction

There ain't no switch

No on and off button

Most people cannot just

Stop being

Angry-----Depressed-----Tense

Our ancestors sent us a bunch of

Tendencies

Then our parents, teachers and friends

Made their contribution

As far as I can tell there's only

One way out 

Training      Daily      Training

Study and practice

Meditation

Fitness and good health

Enough sleep and pure water

Inspiring associations

And 20 to 30 years diligent application

It's as simple as that

day 29,283

Old

Old 

Getting old and some great treat

Even with these messed up feet

Pain in my joints and noise in my ears

A long full life without many tears

The best of life is at the last

If I stay sharp it's a daily blast 

Now I know there's no place to get

Forgetting gratitude is the only threat

day 29,281